Charming in Gray and Silver

Upon staying late at night and finishing a pile of annoying school work, I was stroke by the thought of what if one day I woke up and all these obstacles suddenly disappeared like a bubble. Poof! Then gone. Wouldn’t life be a lot easier and less stressful?

It has been a month already and everything is definitely getting tougher as each day goes by. And I feel like I’m losing the battle of efficiently dividing time for things I like to do and things I need to do since school is consuming much of my time now. I feel sad every time I remember some things I used to do which I can no longer enjoy as for the moment. Last week, we just had our Monthly exam and judging with the results I garnered, (so far) little sacrifices I did paid off. But still I know I can do a lot better than that. So I’m setting my goals higher now and will try to keep up with my good work. Positive!

Our delivery room duty has ended as well, it has been an extremely fulfilling experience with a very generous clinical instructor. I wish we could have longer chance for DR duty; but, we all have to rotate in the hospital. So now we’re designated to out patient department. As usual, there are more things to do in OPD. I’m quite excited for our school nursing and home visit! I bet we’ll learn a lot from those experiences. Anyway, I know it’s been days since I last posted here so I’m keeping up with some shots I took for the past days. Here’s my chubby hand that awfully got injured during my handball class and my awkward smiling face to scare you all. Haha.

Truly stress will forever be glued on our shoulders. Sometimes you just have to give more priority on things you know that need more attention. (So as for the lack of update on this blog). And if one day I woke up and all these obstacles suddenly evaporated, I know that I’ll definitely lose the chance of developing myself more to a better person.

Here’s the scene that was once paused for a moment. An out of the blue scene where we both stand in a moment. And I startled once the bright and blinding flash hit my eyes because I know after that split second, in that very sweet paused moment, time will resume and will bring things back on its right subtle places.

It’s the scene that was once paused for a moment, which can never be reiterated, because that instant was exceptional and sole. It was that instant when I first briskly felt your warm radiant skin touched mine. It was smooth and soft as I was expecting, as soft and as gentle as those deep brown eyes that sparkled with the fast beam of the flash. In that suspended glitzy moment, you were standing next to me and everything around us were nothing but plain background and our distance was approximately very few millimeters away. I can tell because as you gradually move, I can feel the radiating warmth of you skin and the cotton cloth of your dress suavely touching me. There’s this unutterable imperceptible force that makes that scene, that sweet memorable moment, priceless. And my heart was screaming for it wants the time to ice up.

Now I’m staring at the scene that was once pause for a moment. That out of the blue scene where we both stand still in a moment. That scene captured with a swift blinding flash of the camera. That scene in my hand, in my heart, and in my mind is now frozen forever.

This week basically revolved around first exposure to clients in a delivery room. Things going on there were intense! I was shocked with how giving birth looks like because the first time I saw an actual delivery was only on a video. But this time, I’m right there, on the scene, standing on the corner and watching the baby comes out of the mother’s birth canal. It’s quite sickening at first with all those blood and foul smell; but, it was actually amazing, realizing that that’s how a person life starts as soon as he gasp some air as he cries. The experience cutting the cord, handling the baby, administering vaccines, and all that was fascinating! I’m glad that I finally have my first case done! (More to come!) And it feels so good after knowing that your clients are in good condition especially the babies.

During duty hours (when we have no clients to give birth and all we do is just sit there, wait, and chat - I thank the Lord for my clinical instructor isn’t that strict. I have the coolest clinical instructor!) I spend my time reading this lovely Norwegian Wood I borrowed from Ry. Murukami’s style is something beyond my vocabulary to describe! I love it and I’m looking forward to reading more of his works.

So this quite homework-loaded weekend, I’ll definitely find time to finish this book. (Screw homework!) I included a photo below of the avocado shake my mom prepared earlier. I love avocado shake!